Hi.

Dear sister,
Sometimes, I am scared that you don't love me as much as I love you.
Sometimes, I am scared that when you don't want to talk to me, that means you don't miss me.
Sometimes, I feel like you don't want to come visit me.
Sometimes, I feel angry that my missing you doesn't make you instantly come up to visit.
Sometimes, I feel sad because I think that you don't think I am doing the right thing.
Sometimes, My heart just hurts with how much I love you.
Sometimes, I miss you so much that I find random reasons to call you.
Sometimes, I feel like we are completely different people.
Sometimes, I think we are the same person in different bodies.
You my dear sister...
Have ruled over my life since the day I was born.
There is not a moment that goes by where I don't wish that I was snuggling with you. Getting the car washed with you, baking cookies with you, talking about goofy things, serious things, things that don't seem important to anyone else, but bonds us in a way that NO one will ever understand.

A sisters bond, it's one that I can't even describe. I also can not even begin to imagine NOT having that bond with someone. This summer, when I was backpacking, Cassidy got sad because she thought I was regretting coming on the trip because I talked about missing you so much...
What she doesn't understand, and when MANY people don't understand, is that the missing... it can't be ignored, turned off, or forgotten. You are the best thing that has happened to me. You my dear, are my sister and the best one in alllllll of the land.

Row, Row, Row MY boat...

Sometimes.

Sometimes I just want to snuggle with you in bed all day.

Sometimes I want to eat ice cream and paint my nails and talk about boys with you all day.

Sometimes I am not very good at telling you just how amazing you are.

Sometimes I get tired and floppy and you love me anyway.

Sometimes my heart aches with wishing that you had chosen Chico or Humboldt instead of Oregon.

Sometimes I get so sad with missing you that I just have to call it quits on the day.

Today, all of those things happened.

So, sissy, hurry up and finish college. Hurry up and come home to me. Okay?

Red.

Loving him is like driving a new Maserati down a dead end street
Faster than the wind
Passionate as sin, ended so suddenly
Loving him is like trying to change your mind
Once you’re already flying through the free fall
Like the colors in autumn
So bright just before they lose it all

Losing him was blue like I’d never known
Missing him was dark grey all alone
Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met
But loving him was red
Loving him was red

Touching him is like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you
Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song
Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there’s no right answer
Regretting him was like wishing you never found out love could be that strong

Losing him was blue like I’d never known
Missing him was dark grey all alone
Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met
But loving him was red
Oh red burning red

Remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes
Tell myself it’s time now, gotta let go
But moving on from him is impossible
When I still see it all in my head

Burning red!
Darling it was red!

Oh, losing him was blue like I’d never known
Missing him was dark grey all alone
Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met
Cause loving him was red yeah yeah red
We're burning red

And that's why he's spinning round in my head
Comes back to me burning red
Yeah yeah

Cause love was like driving a new Maserati down a dead end street

Taylor Swift knows her shit...